You Will Love This One

Hello All,

What can say about my poor Bucs. We don't play well in cold weather, the wind was factor, or maybe this just isn't our season. Actually, I don't think it is any Florida football teams season except for maybe the University of Florida, and we all know how I feel about them. But I will say good effort and maybe next year. I went to the Super Bowl when the Bucs beat up on Oakland and from the little I remember(to much to drink)it was a good game.

OK, I have a funny story to share with all of you. I was in New Jersey visiting my brothers' family. Well, his wife is a former beauty queen who is always giving me unnecessary advice on how to attract a man. One of these days I will share some of the things she has told me. Anyway, their next door neighbors is a gay couple named John and Steve. Very nice guys who have actually babysat my twin nephews on occasion. Well, my sister-in-law says to my brother last night how come we are not more like John and Steve; they hold hands and shop together and are just so in love. My brother, god bless his heart, says to her you want us to be more like John and Steve; well if you let me fuck you in the ass we can be more like John and Steve. I almost passed out from laughing so hard, I thought she was going to kick me out her house. It is glad to see that marriage and children haven't changed my brother one bit.

Hugs & Kisses,
Cameron

Girls Who Can Not Think For Themselves

Hello All,

How is everyones weekend so far? Good I hope. I have had a very busy week. I am currently in Jersey getting ready to attend the Bucs/Giants game. I am keeping hope alive that the Bucs can pull out a victory but after watching my beloved Seminoles loose last night to Maryland I seriously doubt it. Anyway this entry is not about football.

I have a serious problem and I really need some advice on how to handle the situation. A young lady who goes by the name of Leilani recently contacted me about wanting to be my protege. I was very flattered until she mentioned and I quote:"I copied yours for lack of time to make up my own words." I swear I had to do a double take. Then I went to her site and sure as the sky is blue she copied everything word for word. If you don't believe me check out her site for yourself: www.sofiz2k8dislanddiamond.com. I have gotten in touch with her urging her to change the text and also the entire site. I have a problem with showing "the pink", all over the internet. I believe you should leave some things to the imagination. In this business your reputation is all you have and I have worked very hard on my reputation for it not to be stolen by some here today gone tomorrow escort.

As I mentioned I am very upset over this matter. I have made post on TER and sent her an email about the site. I really don't know what else to do so any advice on the matter is greatly appreciated. I would have been more than happy to help her with her text if she had asked me, but this is just unacceptable behavior.

Hugs & Kisses,
Cameron

Ps: Lets go Bucs!!!!!

Al Fin de Semana (At the End of The Week)

Hello All,

How is everyone doing? Good I hope. Is everyone excited about the weekend? I know I am. I have absolutely no plans but to park my cute little tushie on my couch and watch football. I have told my friends not call me unless Michael Jordan, Alex Rodriguez or David Beckham is in town and they are looking for me.

I had to do something this morning that I hate to do: I went grocery shopping at the local supermarket.....Pick-Up Publix. On the list of things that I hate to do, grocery shopping in number one. Never will you find more rude people confined in one place. There is absolutely no etiquette in grocery shopping. Now you might ask me why I call it Pick Up Publix??? Well that is simple because if you saw what the women wore to go buy bread and water you would be amazed. One time I wore a dress in there and this guy followed me all throughout the store and even to my car. I finally asked him what the hell he thought he was doing. Then he replied in this voice "I just want to know if you need some help." In kind I replied back and said if you really wanted to help me; you would have bought my groceries while you were standing behind me in line. I probably would have given you my phone number and you might have gotten laid tonight, but you didn't and now you are going to have to go home and jerk off to what would have been a fantastic way to start off the day.

I hate grocery shopping!!!

Hugs & Kisses,
Cameron

Breakdown

This past week has somewhat been a stressful one for me. It had me reflecting on a lot of decisions I have made in my life; some good, some bad and some so so. I want to thank all of you who have posted on my diary page and who sent emails to me. My friend is doing a little bit better, everyday I can see her confidence coming back.

I am going to share a little of myself; for those of you who are interested in getting to know me better. I went through a similar incident like this one many years ago it feels like. What go me through those hard times was writing. I wrote this particular poem that expressed my feelings and I would like to share it with you:

You called yesterday to basically say
That you care for me but that you're just not in love
Immediately I pretended to be feeling similarly
And led you to believe I was ok
To just walk away from the one thing
That's unyielding and scared to me

So what do you do when somebody you're devoted to
Suddenly just stops loving you and it seems they haven't got a clue
Of the pain that rejection is putting you through
Do you cling to your pride and sing "I will survive"
Do you lash out and say "How dare you leave this way"
Do you hold on in vain as they just slip away

Well I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it
And I'm going to extremes to prove I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath the guise of a smile gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly
Because I don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise until I go home at night
And turn down all the lights and then I break down and cry

Hugs & Kisses,
Cameron

What do Men Want....Really???

I know I am probably going to get a lot of commentary about this post, but I really need someone to explain the opposite sex to me. Are men really from Mars and women from Venus? I only ask; because I have a good friend crying her eyes out in my spare bedroom because some man.....wait let me correct that, because some boy has broken her heart. I know that relationships are hard work, but with that being said there is a right way and a wrong way to do something.

I am not sure as to what happen between my friend and this guy who she met a little over a year ago. They started off fine from on outsiders observation. I know he lived up North and she lived down here in Florida and maybe that contributed to the demise of the relationship. I do know that my friend wasn't and still isn't looking for a boyfriend, she just wanted someone to hang out with, catch a game with, go on vacation with. Just be with someone who wasn't go to make things complicated. Well, things started to change for them after New Year's and they went their separate ways after her birthday. Oh did mention she took him to Mexico for his "30th" birthday. But and maybe this is her fault; she still wanted to be friends with this guy because she really liked hanging out with him. Well a couple a weeks ago she asked him to her a simple favor. And I can honestly say that to this day she is still waiting. My friend, Antoinette, feels so bad that she can't even get a return phone call from this jerk. She is not asking to borrow money, or asking for a place to stay; she just wants to know some places to eat and some sights to see when she goes on vacation and that doesn't warrant a return phone call.

I will be the first to admit I do not know what happened in their relationship. I know it cuts both ways,but they still chose to hang out with each other after they decided to go their separate ways. And if he had such a problem then he should have said something to her instead of ignoring her and making her feel like shit. You know what my friend said to me last night in between tears: "I must be a really awful person." No your not!!! I will admit once again I don't know what happened in that relationship but unless she stabbed him, burned down his house and ran over his mother with a car there is no plausible, rationale excuse for that behavior. Look if he didn't want to talk her anymore so be it; he could've given her the information she requested and then said don't call him anymore.

I hate seeing people upset over stupidness (especially ones I care about). Maybe it is me, maybe it is because I am woman. Do men really think that ignoring the situation is the best way to handle something? Or maybe he gets his kicks doing stuff like that. I don't know but I wish someone would explain it to me so that I can explain it to my friend.

Kisses,
Cam

My Apology

If you happen to live up North I am feeling very sorry for you today. It just happens to be a beautiful postcard day here in Florida. The weather is about 78'degrees and the sky is so blue with the white puffy clouds. Just another day in paradise..LOL.

This past weekend I was hanging out with my married friend Charlotte, because I had to tell her what happened to me this past Thursday. Anyway, we were watching some football and I noticed that Charlotte kept commenting on how sexy the players were. This didn't bother me at first because the ones she was commenting on were very cute. But as the game continued she started rated them on a "would I do them scale". It went something like this: Reggie Bush, I would definitely do him; Chad Pennington, I would do him if no else would find out; Jason Taylor,I would do him on the 50 yard line. At first it was very funny I even joined in and gave my picks, but then I thought what a sexist pig you are. Here these poor men are going out weekend after weekend and risking injury just so you can rate them on a "do me scale". I said to,Charlotte, you should be ashamed of yourself. How would you feel if some guy rated you on a scale? She walked over to her fence and asked her neighbor on a scale of one to ten what number would she get on the do me factor. Her neighbor gave her a eight(her hair wasn't done), she looked at me and said "I feel great, I got an eight and my hair wasn't even done."

I have to apologize to all you men out there that I mentally scored in my mind. You are more than: his ass looks really good in those slacks. You are more than: he has such beautiful blue eyes. You are more than: I wonder how good he is at "DATY". At that moment I woke up....Got ya!

Hugs & Kisses,
Cam

A Very Funny Story

Hello All,

How is everyone doing? Good I hope. I have a very very funny story to share with all of you, but before I do that I have to talk about last nights game between Florida State and North Carolina State. I am beginning to think that Bobby Bowden is being blackmailed by Drew Rutherford. Because there is no way this kid can be so awful for so long and not be benched. I don't want to hear that bleeding heart crap of give the kid a chance he has no offensive line to back him up. That is not true he has two great wide receivers and a running back that was the highest recruit in the state of Florida. Did you see that game? We were down by four with fifteen minutes left in the game. Instead of playing it safe and getting steady yards so that you could throw it into the end zone. We decided on the second play of the series to throw long and ofcourse NC State picked us off. Now I didn't play football when I was a little girl but I know enough to realize that if your receiver is covered by a sea of red shirts and you are wearing white shirts maybe you shouldn't throw it to him especially when you have another receiver who is completely wide open. I don't know maybe that is just me.

Ok on to my funny story. Last night I went to the grand opening of the Carnival Center for the Performing Arts in Miami. I had gotten these tickets a long time ago and it was to benefit a great cause; Breast Cancer. Which by the way, I have decided to donate half of my proceeds from every trip this month to the National Breast Cancer Society. My one friend Charlotte could not go with me because she had another engagement so I took my other friend Teneal (no relation to the Captain). Now, it is been about a solid year since Teneal and I have hung out so I really forgot that she has a problem with alcohol. We go into the hall which is just beautiful; it is a 2100 seat hall and the center stage is retractable. To simply put it is breathtaking. Our table just happened to be in the center and we were seated with a girl from South Miami that neither one of us knew. As the night progressed she was complaining about how there were no decent men around and every man she meets is gay. My friend without skipping a beat says to her:"you don't shoot all the dogs because one has fleas (in her best Southern accent) and maybe you shouldn't blame the guys you meet but you should blame your pussy instead for attracting those type of guys." At that moment the entire building went quite and I felt all eyes on me. It reminded me of that Eddie Murphy movie with Grace Jones in it where she kept saying, "pussy, pussy, pussy." I tired to get up from the table but my dress got caught in the chair and I fell flat on my face. I have to laugh at myself because at best I would have gone through the evening as the girl who sat at that table but NOW I will be referred to as the girl who not only sat at that table but who fell on flat on her face.

I could go on to tell you all about how I really embarrassed myself while trying to do the electric slide. I am sorry but yours truly was not blessed with the "rhythm" gene. I feel I have divulged enough information for one day. Besides I don't want anyone to get the wrong impression of me; you know that I like to hang out with vulgar women, fall in very public places and realize that I can't dance. I have a reputation to maintain.

Hugs & Kisses,
Cam

What a Great Weekend!!!

I have to say this past weekend was one of the best weekends I have had in a very long time. It was a great weekend for football both on the collegiate level and the pros. But before I get into a heated debate on football I have a little story to share with all. This past week I had the great privilege of speaking with my good friend "Steve". It was great because we hadn't spoken in a long time. This story will make him laugh.

I went to see my nephew play flag football Saturday morning. I mean this kid is one to keep an eye out for. At thirteen he is already 5'8" tall and great wide receiver. Unfortunately, his parents want him to go to the University of Florida for college. I took along my gay friend, Mark, because he promised me brunch after the game. The game was held in this town named Davie, which is not known for its tolerant views. This is the same town that had the nerve to called Miami Dolphins defensive end Jason Taylor the "N" word. So, when I showed up I felt it was my duty to stir things up a little. Mid-way through the second quarter of the game I started in on my friend Mark. I was joking ofcourse, but I asked why he was leaving me...is it because I am black and what about the baby. I had all of these people looking at me. I even had a couple wanting to adopt my baby. However, my little niece didn't find it funny. She started to get upset because she thought that I was upset and she didn't understand why anybody would want to hurt me. What can I say the kid just loves me!! I told her that I was playing with Mark and he wasn't really mad me and then I asked her if she stopped crying we would go to Toys-r-us and get her a new Barbie. Before I could blink my eyes she had stopped crying and trying to get me to get her two Barbies; because as she puts it she was really really upset.

Now onto one of my favorite subjects: Football. I was pretty pleased with this weekends results except for one team: the Miami Dolphins. Now I am not a fan of the team by no means they always seem to let you down. This year is no different; at least they started early and not waited until the end of the season. I had mentioned that they wouldn't be any better because they had Dante Culpepper. If anything they have gotten worse because of him. He is an overrated quaterback; this is a guy who barley made the cut to finish playing at UCF because he couldn't maintain a 2.0 GPA. After he ran of Randy Moss from Minnesota he still couldn't perform. I know some of you are going to email me saying that he was injured but hell every football player gets injured...its part of the profession. He leads the league in qb sacks. I think he is something like third for interceptions. Saban should have went with Marcus Vick at least he can scramble out of pocket. I also don't want to hear about how the Dolphins aren't doing well because they don't have Ricky Williams, because that is a none issue. They new they weren't getting Ricky since the offseason and last season when he was there he was a non-factor as well.

All I am saying that for those of you who thought that Miami was going to be in the Super Bowl because the Super Bowl is down here in Miami, well that fantasy just isn't going to come true. Better luck next year!!!

Hug & Kisses,
Cameron